I suck at journaling. I suck at dieting. I suck at finance. *heavy sigh*
Fall down 7 times, get up 8...I suppose.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Thursday, June 17th, 2010
Feeling pretty good today. It’s been a good week diet-wise. I’ve been tracking everything and I’ve gotten some exercise. Work is still getting me down a little bit, but things are improving. Maybe it’s not so much that things are improving, but my outlook is improving. My quote of the day is from Groucho Marx. I’ve been repeating it today over and over….”"I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it."
Oh, and I'm going for beers with Mike...which definitely helps with the happiness quotient.
Oh, and I'm going for beers with Mike...which definitely helps with the happiness quotient.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Tuesday, June 15th, 2010
So yesterday...
Ran the stairs 5 times. Feel good about that.
Ate Zeppe's for dinner. Feel bad about that.
Sydney was laughing and playing with me. Feel great about that.
Ran the stairs 5 times. Feel good about that.
Ate Zeppe's for dinner. Feel bad about that.
Sydney was laughing and playing with me. Feel great about that.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Monday, June 14th, 2010
I’m going to have to start journaling everyday. I’m losing track of moments and I’m getting bogged down further and further.
Weight update: I’ve been stagnant. Making excuses for bad behavior and laziness. I’m sure that playing directly into my funky moods.
Books: I just finished Sarah Palin’s book. I finished On the Road and Liberty and Tyranny by Mark Levin on audiobook. I’m currently listening to The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. That should help in work and in life. I’m also reading the Bible in total. I’m on a 90 day reading plan. It’s pretty ambitious, but I can do it. I have to decide what my next print book is going to be. I have so many that I want to read.
Hung out with Chuck a little bit this weekend. That was nice. Unfortunately it had to be after a wake for Megan’s grandma.
I’ve been so worn out lately, it’s like I can’t get enough sleep…ever. I know I need exercise. Another thing I’ve been making excuses about. Just look at the previous entries.
One great thing about life right now is my family. I love my wife and baby girl more than anything. I’ve been closer with my mom and sisters than I have been in a long time. Dad? Well, we’re still working on that.
Weight update: I’ve been stagnant. Making excuses for bad behavior and laziness. I’m sure that playing directly into my funky moods.
Books: I just finished Sarah Palin’s book. I finished On the Road and Liberty and Tyranny by Mark Levin on audiobook. I’m currently listening to The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. That should help in work and in life. I’m also reading the Bible in total. I’m on a 90 day reading plan. It’s pretty ambitious, but I can do it. I have to decide what my next print book is going to be. I have so many that I want to read.
Hung out with Chuck a little bit this weekend. That was nice. Unfortunately it had to be after a wake for Megan’s grandma.
I’ve been so worn out lately, it’s like I can’t get enough sleep…ever. I know I need exercise. Another thing I’ve been making excuses about. Just look at the previous entries.
One great thing about life right now is my family. I love my wife and baby girl more than anything. I’ve been closer with my mom and sisters than I have been in a long time. Dad? Well, we’re still working on that.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Monday, May 24th, 2010
So, I’ve been slacking on the diet. Big time. I’ve basically plateaued, but not in the strictest sense of the word. I haven’t hit a wall, I’ve just sat down. So, I’m going to hit it hard this week. Totally on point with the tracking and I’m going to start working in some exercise. My goal is to lose at least 3 lbs this week. I can do it.
This job sucks. I am so weary of it. First of all, I’m doing the job I got hired to do 9 years ago and worked hard to get out of. It’s very depressing and discouraging. I know I have to do what I have to do for my family. I know things could be much, much worse. I know I make good money for the work I do. It’s about jenny and syd….not about my comfort level.
I’m reading Going Rogue. It’s good. Very good insight. Trying to figure out what I’m going to read next. I’ve been very interested in survivalism lately. Maybe Patriots or Alas, Babylon. I’d have to get them from the library since we’re getting very strict with the budget. Beans and rice, baby. Again, it’s not about what I want, it’s about my family. Live like no one else so later we can live like no one else.
This job sucks. I am so weary of it. First of all, I’m doing the job I got hired to do 9 years ago and worked hard to get out of. It’s very depressing and discouraging. I know I have to do what I have to do for my family. I know things could be much, much worse. I know I make good money for the work I do. It’s about jenny and syd….not about my comfort level.
I’m reading Going Rogue. It’s good. Very good insight. Trying to figure out what I’m going to read next. I’ve been very interested in survivalism lately. Maybe Patriots or Alas, Babylon. I’d have to get them from the library since we’re getting very strict with the budget. Beans and rice, baby. Again, it’s not about what I want, it’s about my family. Live like no one else so later we can live like no one else.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Monday, April 26th, 2010
Posted my second gain in as many weeks. I know what the problem is. Yesterday we had John and his girlfriend over for a BBQ. Burgers, dogs, chips, ice cream cake. Yum. Of course I didn’t gain .2 lbs of FAT, it’s just water retention from the sodium…but it’s still discouraging. I did get a pedometer. It’s pretty cool. I average about 3k steps on an average day. I’m going to walk on breaks and try to aim for double that. Then I’ll try for 10k steps per day. That should definitely help the efforts.
I had to drop Syd off at daycare alone today. It was tougher than when I drop her off with Jenny. I really wish I earned enough money so Jenny could stay home with her. She wants that more than anything. I’m starting to want it just as much.
I had to drop Syd off at daycare alone today. It was tougher than when I drop her off with Jenny. I really wish I earned enough money so Jenny could stay home with her. She wants that more than anything. I’m starting to want it just as much.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Thursday, April 22nd, 2010
It's been almost a month since my last entry. Not a whole helluva lot has changed in that month. Syd's getting bigger by the day. I'm still working, thankfully. My mood is better lately. I've been turning things over to the Father. I'm down almost 17# and going strong. I just finished reading Hatchet last night. I forgot how good that book was. I revamped the To Do List a little bit. Now, I'm looking to go golfing at least 3 times. That'll be a challenge, I'm afraid. Also, I had planned to have 7 Guys Nights Out....doesn't look like that's going to be feasable as I don't even talk to Beas anymore. I wonder what's up his arse?
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I'm thinking my 2010 To Do List needs a bit of a rehash. The further along I walk down the path of fatherhood, the more I realize that time and money are a luxury that seem to be slipping through my fingers. That being said, the thought of golfing 7 times this year may be temporarily and financially unlikely. Another task that might take some revamping is the reading 12 books over the course of the year. Maybe I could count the audiobooks. I didn't want to do that, but I'm falling behind with my standard format books. Maybe I should just watch less TV and read more?
My mood has improved slightly. I'm trying to lay my problems at God's feet. It's a hard thing to do. We're hardwired to try to fix things ourselves. And, to a degree that's a good thing...but dwelling on things isn't good. There's no point in hanging onto trifles, or accidents common or unavoidable, to paraphrase Ben Franklin.
Oh, and before I forget: 75 days til vacation. Boo yah.
My mood has improved slightly. I'm trying to lay my problems at God's feet. It's a hard thing to do. We're hardwired to try to fix things ourselves. And, to a degree that's a good thing...but dwelling on things isn't good. There's no point in hanging onto trifles, or accidents common or unavoidable, to paraphrase Ben Franklin.
Oh, and before I forget: 75 days til vacation. Boo yah.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
I'm having a rough day. I seem to be annoyed by everything and everyone. Everyone except my wife and daughter, that is. I don't feel like I'm engaged when I'm at work and I dread doing my daily tasks. I need to get my focus back. I'm not sure where I veered off track, but I know I'm off. Maybe some prayer and meditation...maybe spending some time over the weekend in reflection...I don't know. Something's not right and I have to get it together.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
Happy Birthday, Mom!!
I blew my week. Posted a gain today. Saw it coming. I'm just not sure how to get into a rhythm. Being a dad is tough....but that's just an excuse for laziness and slackerness. Why do I constantly make excuses?
I've been at work for over 2 hours and haven't done one productive thing. I have an assignment that was supposed to start today, but I'm not sure who to talk to for details. It's probably not as complicated a matter as I'm making it, but my head's definitely not in the game today.
Jenny's been freaking out, thinking Syd is getting sick, even though she doesn't have a fever, she's sleeping and she's not crying. She lets herself get worked up too easily. It's draining. I want to be supportive, but I can't say anything to her once she gets something in her head. It's like banging my head against a wall. I just have to let it run its course. Exhausting.
I blew my week. Posted a gain today. Saw it coming. I'm just not sure how to get into a rhythm. Being a dad is tough....but that's just an excuse for laziness and slackerness. Why do I constantly make excuses?
I've been at work for over 2 hours and haven't done one productive thing. I have an assignment that was supposed to start today, but I'm not sure who to talk to for details. It's probably not as complicated a matter as I'm making it, but my head's definitely not in the game today.
Jenny's been freaking out, thinking Syd is getting sick, even though she doesn't have a fever, she's sleeping and she's not crying. She lets herself get worked up too easily. It's draining. I want to be supportive, but I can't say anything to her once she gets something in her head. It's like banging my head against a wall. I just have to let it run its course. Exhausting.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Tuesday, February 23rd, 2010
i haven't been doing sit ups and push ups. I've been lazy.
the lost symbol is done...and it was awesome. now i'm reading strong fathers, strong daughters and full steam ahead. i have to read the latter for work...so i haven't decided if it counts.
I am down another 2.4 lbs, so that's good.
We have a visitor coming over tomorrow. A blast from the past that i'm not sure I'm that excited about. It's been a long time. it will dredge up a lot of memories that I'm not sure I'm ready to face. I'm sure it'll be okay, I'm just a little uneasy.
back up to 14 hrs in the etb bank. 26 more to go. just 3.25 more pay periods. i can swing that.
the lost symbol is done...and it was awesome. now i'm reading strong fathers, strong daughters and full steam ahead. i have to read the latter for work...so i haven't decided if it counts.
I am down another 2.4 lbs, so that's good.
We have a visitor coming over tomorrow. A blast from the past that i'm not sure I'm that excited about. It's been a long time. it will dredge up a lot of memories that I'm not sure I'm ready to face. I'm sure it'll be okay, I'm just a little uneasy.
back up to 14 hrs in the etb bank. 26 more to go. just 3.25 more pay periods. i can swing that.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Updates on the To Do List:
I had to eat into my etb bank so now I'm down to 6 from 16. Unfortunately, Sydney has had some fussiness problems which has prevented mama from getting any sleep. After several days of this, the Daddy Cavalry had to ride in to help out. Syd had her well check yesterday. She's up to 9lb 7oz and Doc had us change to the GentleEase formula. That seems to have helped so far.
I'm very near done with The Lost Symbol. That book's great. Dan Brown's best in my opinion. Since I'm aiming for a book a month and Palin's book is pretty thick, I may read a smaller book so I can hit my 2 before starting hers. I'm not sure. We'll see.
I bought a 1 TB hard drive for $90. Now I have to get the data dumped onto it.
I went off the grid yesterday. Ate pizza. It's all good. I'm back on the horse today. I can have slips from time to time. No big deal. I DO, however, need to get into an exercise routine. Sarah and Dan have our Wii Fit, I have no gym membership, no treadmill, no weights...yet. So, I've decided to just start with the standard sit ups and push ups.
Push ups per day: 40
Sit ups per day: 30
Gonna make it happen.
I had to eat into my etb bank so now I'm down to 6 from 16. Unfortunately, Sydney has had some fussiness problems which has prevented mama from getting any sleep. After several days of this, the Daddy Cavalry had to ride in to help out. Syd had her well check yesterday. She's up to 9lb 7oz and Doc had us change to the GentleEase formula. That seems to have helped so far.
I'm very near done with The Lost Symbol. That book's great. Dan Brown's best in my opinion. Since I'm aiming for a book a month and Palin's book is pretty thick, I may read a smaller book so I can hit my 2 before starting hers. I'm not sure. We'll see.
I bought a 1 TB hard drive for $90. Now I have to get the data dumped onto it.
I went off the grid yesterday. Ate pizza. It's all good. I'm back on the horse today. I can have slips from time to time. No big deal. I DO, however, need to get into an exercise routine. Sarah and Dan have our Wii Fit, I have no gym membership, no treadmill, no weights...yet. So, I've decided to just start with the standard sit ups and push ups.
Push ups per day: 40
Sit ups per day: 30
Gonna make it happen.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
2010 To Do List
So, I hate New Years resolutions. To me they're empty promises to "be a better person" or "start anew in the new year". Bollocks. I think a person should be in constant pursuit of improvement and refreshment of the soul, etc. Now, that's not to say that a person shouldn't make goals for themselves. So I've created a To Do List for 2010. These are just small goals I want to accomplish throughout the year. They're not lofty life-changers like, "I'll lose weight, quit smoking and read more". These are specific goals and mile markers that I'll either acheive or not. So far, I've gotten a pretty good start.
1. Read at least one book per month. (at least 4 from the Must Read List for men) - I'm about halfway through The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown. My next book will be Going Rogue (or Going Rouge if you're Chris Cuomo) by Sarah Palin.
6. Get down to 215 # - I signed up for WeightWatchers for men online and I'm down 5 lbs in my first week. Not bad.
12. Back up all data to external HD and organize. - I've priced out external hard drives and I'll be picking one up within a couple weeks.
16. Organize (or make sure someone organizes) Guy’s Night at least 7 times. - I'm in the process of contacting the guys for a guy's night out currently.
19. Build up a 40 hr ETB cushion - I've got 16 hrs.
There are 23 items on the list, so I'm only scratching the surface...but that's what this is all about. Setting goals and moving toward them. Not life-changing "resolutions".
1. Read at least one book per month. (at least 4 from the Must Read List for men) - I'm about halfway through The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown. My next book will be Going Rogue (or Going Rouge if you're Chris Cuomo) by Sarah Palin.
6. Get down to 215 # - I signed up for WeightWatchers for men online and I'm down 5 lbs in my first week. Not bad.
12. Back up all data to external HD and organize. - I've priced out external hard drives and I'll be picking one up within a couple weeks.
16. Organize (or make sure someone organizes) Guy’s Night at least 7 times. - I'm in the process of contacting the guys for a guy's night out currently.
19. Build up a 40 hr ETB cushion - I've got 16 hrs.
There are 23 items on the list, so I'm only scratching the surface...but that's what this is all about. Setting goals and moving toward them. Not life-changing "resolutions".
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